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[Oct. 25th, 2008|11:26 am] |
sudden urge to blog even though my blog is like officially dead.
freaking a's are coming and i jus cant wait to get over and done with it so that i can PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!!!! i just cant wait to throw all my notes away and start revamping my room. new curtains are definitely gona come up, but whatever, not gona go on n on ranting about how things are gona be like if not i will sound like a damn bimbo shit.
goodness sake. just let a's fly past! then it's gona be shopping, stayovers, prom, gossips, gossip girl chionging, slacking, dvdssssss, movieeeees, drama serials, working out, sentosa-ing, chalet, good food (I CANT WAIT TO EAT LALA AT SAKURA AGAIN!!! EUGENEEEE!) OH! HONGKONG!!!! spam bags, shoes, clothes, accessories! GOODNESS! i wana do alot of things! cross stitch, make my own necklaces and ear rings, paintings, oh, and of course, work. :) experience a few months of working life. :D
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
THANKS ALEVELS! THANKS AH! !@#$%^&*! |
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[Jul. 1st, 2008|08:09 pm] |
have the sudden urge to blog.
so many things to say. so many thanks, so many sorries.
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that night i was asking myself, how do you define a worthy friend? a good friend. a best friend. i think, i've been trying too hard to be a good girlfriend, that for so many months, i've been neglecting the importance of nurturing a healthy friendship. that a friendship is like a relationship, it needs the people involved to put in the time, the effort and most importantly, the sincerity. not that i'm blaming the relationship of course, i'll never do that. just suddenly realised that, i've never really been a very good friend. i dont know how to put all of my feelings into this post, but whatever that happened had really set me thinking.
what kind of person am i?
what kind of person should i be?
what do i lack as a person?
what do i possess as a person?
am i worthy of what i wish for?
am i still able to achieve things like how i used to?
have i lost myself?
what's my purpose of living in this world?
what's my next goal in life?
where did my courage and determination go to?
i think, i need to get back my identity. soon.
i wished newton had done something more productive like playing hopscotch with his friend, rather than being a nerd and ponder upon why would an apple drop down from a tree. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2008|06:20 pm] |
LET IT REALLY SINK IN - THEN CHOOSE
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John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, 'If I were any better, I would be twins!'
He was a natural motivator.
If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.
Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, 'I don't get it!
You can't be a positive person all of the time How do you do it?'
He replied, 'Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood
I choose to be in a good mood.'
Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.
Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.
'Yeah, right, it's not that easy,' I protested.
'Yes, it is,' he said. 'Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood.'
'You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life.'
I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.
Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.
After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back.
I saw him about six months after the accident.
When I asked him how he was, he replied, 'If I were any better, I'd be twins..Wanna see my scars?'
I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.
'The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter,' he replied. 'Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die. I chose to live.'
'Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?' I asked
He continued, '..the paramedics were great.
They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action.'
'What did you do?' I asked.
'Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me,' said John. 'She asked if I was allergic to anything 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled--Gravity!'
Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead.'
He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.
Attitude, after all, is everything.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' Matthew 6:34.
After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
You have two choices now:
01. Delete this
02. Forward it to the people you care about.
You know the choice I made.
thanks meiji :) |
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[May. 21st, 2008|09:27 pm] |
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"all these precious moments, with you by my side. must be a gift from heaven, that's holding me all night."
2u1h@f12: "20th May 2008, the day I stepped down as a councillor" says:
inez
2u1h@f12: "20th May 2008, the day I stepped down as a councillor" says:
u not blogging abt council invest?
SUPERWOMAN! says:
wana blog but dont know where to start
so much emotions. but i just dont know how i should go about blogging about all these.
soon. |
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[May. 19th, 2008|10:22 am] |
oh wells. hahahh.
things are getting a little biiiiiiit complicated. but i'll live with it! :D
meeting zul later to do up something for the council! YAY.
and oh yah, 3pm in council room! see ya all, thirtieth! :D
mock chem spa tmr. useless skill A, cant wait for it to be over.
OH MY GOD. INVESTITURE IS LIKE TOMORROW 0.0 |
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[May. 16th, 2008|06:47 pm] |
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had a headache since i left home for school this morning.. terrible. it was the longest headache that i ever had, yet i was still able to complete some work in school and focus, oh well.
took early leave form after physics test (screwed!) and skill A practice. came home to rest, wanted to go back for investiture rehearsal in the evening, but my headache just wont go away. sorry thirtieth :((
the conversation last night really sets me thinking. what do i really want?
i dont even know it myself.
all i know is that i love you, and you've always been on my mind.
i just kept reading last night's conversation.
i read, and read, and read and read..
the headache's still there. oh well. |
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[May. 14th, 2008|09:30 pm] |
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my sister is such a moron. she wants to look pretty when going on a date with her boyfriend, yet she doesn't wanna spend money (or maybe she's lazy) to buy nice clothes, bags and accessories.
in short, she wore my clothes -.-
irritating. zZzz.
oh well, she's still my sister, and i know she's a good sister laaa.
another pointless entry. i guess im bored. |
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[May. 14th, 2008|08:22 pm] |
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honestly im pretty jealous. i guess it's the first time that i feel really jealous to the MAX.
zzzZz.
i just gotta live with it.
idiot.
this is such a silly post. *pulls hair. |
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[May. 13th, 2008|09:20 pm] |
everyone told me the same thing you wanted me to know, about being understanding towards your decison, about not disappointing you, and not wasting your efforts.
for almost two weeks, i tried so hard to get that straight into my mind. i know i got it in, i know i did. but it just didnt seem like those facts could just tell me, "stop missing him". and even if it did, it didn't work.
till you talked to me.
one side of me felt really happy that i feel like telling the whole world, one side of me felt really sad that you had to go through all these, just for me, just for yourself, and for the sake of our alevels.
i know it's so much more difficult, for you to be able to let go just like that.
i miss you so much, i really do.
keep it going, darling. we will go through this together, and we will do so well for our a's.
i love you. |
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[May. 12th, 2008|08:48 pm] |
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couldnt really fall alseep last night, and i went to re-read this council camp sleeping pill that he gave me before i went camp in early april.
immediately, i fell asleep.
idiot inez, why cant you just stop thinking about him? idiot.
darn, even the word "idiot" reminds me of how he used to call me "idiot" whenever i do silly things.
shit.
i need to try harder. |
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| a new life. |
[May. 9th, 2008|11:21 pm] |
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it has been a week since my life changed. hmm i guess, im getting used to life being like that. i still do breakdown n cry in school and at home though, but ive been trying pretty hard to make myself feel better and be more open about things. i guess it's better now, i guess.
life's just no longer the same. i shall use this time to study damn hard, learn to be more independent and decisive, more sensitive, and maybe more pacifying.
have been trying to use studying as a way to numb myself so that i wouldn't think so much, and i guess it works.
11days to investiture, and it's just hard core mugging all the way till A's.
im going mad. |
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[May. 4th, 2008|01:39 pm] |
i remember that when we were still friends, you told me,
Pink. says:
study for the continued insurance that we're gonna be well and wealthy tmr.
for that, im working hard for you. |
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[May. 4th, 2008|10:27 am] |
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one part of me was strong yesterday, but today, i feel weak all over again.
i tried telling myself how relieved u will feel as those quarrels will finally come to an end.
i tried telling myself that u wouldnt need to spend those unnecessary money on me and can buy many more things u like, such as another guitar.
i tried telling myself that the both of us will do very well for alevels and may eventually get back together again.
i tried being happy whenever im with my friends.
i tried telling myself that you did it for the better of our future.
i tried telling myself that it was a tough decision you had to make and you just didnt wana hurt me anymore.
i tried telling myself that it wasnt my dad's fault cos everytime i see my dad i would think of how much pressure he had put on the both of us which caused what we are today.
i tried telling myself that im so sick of crying and that i should stop and be strong.
i tried telling myself that loving is not possessing.
i tried telling myself that things will still work out in the end if the love is strong and this is jus temporary.
i tried telling myself to work hard so that i can eventually make u proud but nothing went into my head.
i tried telling myself that these few months will pass quickly and things will just get better by itself.
i tried telling myself that time will heal everything.
i tried telling myself that you didnt reply me because you really care and want me to focus.
i tried telling myself that you would not go for any other girl and till a's end, we will end up together again.
all in all, i tried all means and ways to get over the fact that we've broken up but it's just so difficult.
i cant stand myself being so weak and all i want to do is to just sleep,
hoping that things will get better after i wake up.
it's all so difficult. |
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[May. 1st, 2008|03:13 pm] |
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Wednesday
Woo..
I remember the first day that we met it was a Wednesday
It took a while to know you
But we took to each other anyway
It's been a few years now and things are being so good so far
But we got to leave it this way,
I really can't restart..
So I let myself be swallowed by the crowd
I surrounded myself in all that shroud
I can't bear to remember all those times.
I don't understand why you had to go
Leaving all of the things we both once hold
So close and so dear to our hearts
So how are you doing 'cross the map
Are you having a great time?
Seems it's been a million Wednesdays
You're not in my life
All those times that we once had
Are worth being cherished
But oh we're both grown up now
There's no longer a need to
To let myself be swallowed by the crowd
OR surround myself with faded shroud
I will always remember all those times.
I don't need to know why you had to go
I no longer need the things we once hold
And I will always remember the days..
Wednesdays came and went away
Wednesdays will come again, someday..
Woo..
I let myself be swallowed by the crowd.. |
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[May. 1st, 2008|10:43 am] |
watched iron man yesterday after kfc party, so high!
 
see! SO COOL! the iron man was orginally silver, then it became gold, and finally red n gold! SO HIGH! the botak guy on the extreme right is the bad guy, as usual, there has to be a bad guy! and of course that's ironman, ironman's girlfriend and ironman's good friend! :D
it's a damn good show, action-packed with a little humour here and there. i dont remember laughing so much at any action movie before! YAY.
okay, waiting for eric to wake up! im off to do my physics revision tutorial, and continue with my chem revision!
jiayou everyone! :D |
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[Apr. 29th, 2008|10:14 pm] |
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im going mad. i dont know what to do now. i just wana study hard and prove to my parents that im seriously trying to catch up with all the work that ive missed and im gona eventually score for my upcoming tests, my mid year, prelims and of course the big hoo ha- ALEVELS.
all i want is their understanding and trust that im working hard and not playing around even though i said im in a shopping mall, i was studying laaa. obviously not in the middle of the mall but at some quiet eatery. sighhhhhhh. they just dont trust me. it sucks when your parents refuse to believe you, no matter how hard u try to explain.
i guess the only thing i can do is to work really hard for my chem test this friday. i really feel like throwing the chem paper and the entire stack of organic notes at my dad, showing him how much i have to study to acheive good results, if i can get good results, that is. zzZzz. GOD BLESS ME, please.
i dont want it to just end like that but after thinking so much, i feel that loving someone is just to make him feel happy and be there for him whenever he's down. i dont know if he's happy being with me. he doesnt know it too.
actually, all i know is that i love him alot. but is he really happy with me? i really wonder.
till i ace my chem test,
THE LOST INEZ. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2008|09:45 pm] |
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i didnt feel like i'm Inez today.
i felt like i was a _____ who kept writing non stop the entire day.
i wonder how my life would be after investiture. MY THIRTIETH!!
i wonder what i will become after alvls end.
i wonder what will happen to me if life was without eric.
so many thoughts.
INEZ IS LOST. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2008|09:54 am] |
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1) terrible results for blocks! :(
2) a pile of homework waiting for me!
3) THE 30TH STUDENT COUNCIL IS STEPPING DOWN!
:( :(
mixed feelings luh, more time to study but no more council events for us to organize :( my thirtieth!
had college day, as usual, my thirtieth is always there to laugh and joke with me! :D those council room moments after school.. oh well.
after college day yesterday, it really inspired me to work super hard for my a levels. i wana be one of those who come back and receive their award for getting _ distinctions for a levels! :D nothing's gona stop me! Inez is gona be back on track, watch me!
:D :D
i shall go chiong my tutorials now! YES! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2008|06:41 pm] |
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bedok jetty! <3
:D
more photos after eric sends me! yay!
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and i want this!
samsung YP-K3 |
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